By blitzmelee on 08/13/2005
You look past me like nothing is there
Lost within your own mind, selfish and without a care
So I put on my mask, yet another false smile
Life dripping by, wondering why I should stay awhile
You don't see the tears from my constant abuse
My world without meaning, purpose, or use
So, one night, I ask myself why I am here
I am useless, garbage, nothing. Why not just disappear?
I lay on the bathroom floor with bleach firmly pressed to my lips
Holding my very life in my cold, bloodless fingertips
I quit, I give up, there is just no strength left to keep going on
Really, what's the use? I just don't belong
There are no tears left for me to cry and my life is nearly spent
No longer tormented by my fears, I bleed, my soul is torn and rent
Who could love a wretch like me? Why would anybody care?
I'm just that invisible, forgotten one, "that stupid girl over there"
Poison freely floods my mouth and I can hardly utter a scream
Maybe now I'll be happy, lost in a never-ending dream
Drowning emotions, I no longer care, I don't even want to say goodbye
This was my final moment, my end, my very last sigh
And still, my ending did not come, but instead a hope, a glimmer, my light
Just one simple word from you helped bring radiance to my night
Your words may have been nothing more than a false, bittersweet lie
But they really made me ask myself, do I really want to die?
I really didn't know the answer then, but something told me I had to live
I may not have much worth or talent, but maybe there is something I can give
If I could help save others who are just as lost as me
Maybe my very love would allow the blind to see
It took only a brief moment, the silent greeting that you gave
Little will you ever know that it was my life that you did save...
© By blitzmelee On 8/13/2005 12:27:51 AM