I held you to my heart through the night I put you to bed and tucked you tight I held your little finger and watched you rock I helped you as you struggled with your sock
I watched you grow with immense pride I washed your wounds and taught you to ride I held your hand when you thought you were alone I nurtured your dream and thrilled that you had grown
I smiled as you spread your wings and soared high I watched you succeed and heaved a big sigh I did my bit of caring for you my little one Maybe now I can rest since it is your turn
Your dreams, you did chase and grew out of me But I wanted to be there for you as I will forever be When I thought you would look at me, you looked through But have I not lived alone for the fear of losing you?
And you did forget your ma waiting for you Slowly all color ceased from my life save the blue Days blurred into night and then into days As waiting became unbearable in so many ways
I looked through the window hoping to see your face Through long winter nights and warm summer days I was worried I would fall asleep when you arrived And hence chose not to sleep even after I cried
Slowly the loneliness became my only friend I stopped watching the road and over the bend Resigned to the fact that you would not come And that my house can never be a home
Tranquilizers soon replaced my snacks Sedatives soon filled my cupboard racks Depression came along with crashing reality Until death seemed to be the only finality
Now I stand here by my own grave, watching you cry Still my fingers itch to wipe your face dry You probably don''t realize this yet my little one That I will always be by you, despite all you have done
Generally there is a pressure beyond endurance that causes mental depression... I''m trying to portray one of those through this story... I don''t know if it qualifies for the challenge but nevertheless....