I found this poem today in an old journal. It's one of the few I've ever written that actually rhymed. I am more comfortable with free verse and writing song lyrics. I have to say this poem surprised me. I wrote it in 2002, a time of my life where a crisis took place, and I am not the proudest of any of those events. That said, I would never take them back, because those hardships enabled me to grow in a tremendous and beautiful way. I saw the woman I was becoming and didn't like her, and so I began to change into a person I could be proud of. Ever wonder what you would ask God, if you met him face to face?
Dear God would you have me if we should meet tonight? Would you recieve me if fate should dim my light?
And what if I took that life on my own? And what if I stomped and spat on my bones?
Would you forgive? Would you accept? Would I regret those I had left?
Dear God are you judging each step that I make? And do you keep record of all my mistakes?
And what if I questioned your very existance? and what if I sought you with pain and persistance?
Dear God would you listen? Dear God would you care? Dear God when it's over will I see you there?