I can feel it in my blood pushing against my skin trying to break free straining at the ends of my fingertips, wanting out. The feel of it pounds in my head pushes everything out of focus. wanting to escape wanting to scream! Wanting to be held wanting to be loved. Fighting to hold it in screaming silently crying a hole in my heart. Every breath it struggles for some way out, shouting spinning, gasping for air. Wanting to let go but forced to hold it in. Hurting self to shadow the other pain. Wanting to lash out spread the pain cry , scream , nothing pins and needles no hope , hope needing to give up but afraid too , don''t want to lose love. Trying to scream but no one hears it all echoes back all I hear is crying. Anger , love. Cant take it much longer going to break.