I have to block out memories of times now so distant from its start of times i use to laugh, smile, play of times i use to cry, frown, or plague he use to mean it all to me he use to be my world but the pain he left me suffering left me ruined in bleeding remains
i don''t think i can ever get over the pain that was felt here, the sickness i felt to every word i spoke, to every move i made i felt dizzy. to every flash back that invaded my mind leaving me with nothing but another memory of time.
it''s funny how we never know exactly how our lives will go. always waiting on the yes, no''s, or possibly so''s it''s too much to handle when were only living for the minute
i know i will never forget him, quite sure he''s always going to have a part of me but when it comes to me having the strenght to love again he ALWAYS and will be the first to come to mind the first to love me as much as he did even though he cant admitt it i can and always will admitt to the first real love i have ever endured