i realized something just now. i realized something as i was staring into the sleeping eyes of my lover. If i were to actually die today, this very second I would die a very loved and happy soul. Everyday i have someone who is telling me he loves me Everyone of his kisses tells me I''m beautiful. most days i don''t see it. I get so caught up in jealousy of the past that i cant see the future the many more futures of lying asleep with my lover I''ve realized something tonight. I''m truly, utterly, can''t back out, in love.