I knew I wasn't going to make it. The fire wasn't just going to stay lit. I tried so hard but it wasn't going to change the card I wish I could change all of this because I just miss, what I felt and how I could melt just by a look and caught on a hook. But now I'm cold and I can't hold what I want. I can't feel and time won't let me heal. I had everything and now I have nothing.